Friday, December 9, 2005

FIELDING STORIES Growing Up Homestead in the Wilds of Montana, Madeline Bedal

FIELDING STORIES
Growing Up Homestead
in the Wilds of Montana
Madeline Stannard Bedal  


WHAT IS LOVE?

What is love? It could be many things. 

What comes to mind is the dear old lady we called Grandma Armstrong. She wasn’t my grandmother by relation, but she was the only grandma I really loved. She was always there for us. 

 I was born in 1914. My youngest years, before I went to school in town, were spent on our homestead in Fielding, Montana, just below Glacier Park, in the Rockies.  During the early 1900s, there were only about five homes within miles and miles. So we made do with what we had. And we all relied on each other.

Grandma Armstrong was the station master, she lived in the railroad depot, and she was also the postmistress. Every job that was around, that had to be done, that was her job. Anything of importance she would deliver to us on foot, any time, anywhere, throughout the valley. If there was anyone ill, she was the one who took care of them. If there were any deliveries to be made, she made them on foot—it was 5 to 10 miles between homesteads. 

She always had time to stop and have a conversations with you, or if there was a message or a return post, she’d deliver it personally. If you stopped by the depot, there was always a pot of coffee or tea on the potbelly stove in the center of the room. I remember the blue and white plates with flowers on them and the snow-white ruffled white curtains framing the windows, and the table laden with crumpets ready for you. 

What I remember most was when she delivered our Christmas gifts in the snow. We always knew when she was coming. grandma Armstrong was like Santa Claus. She brought cookies and candy. She came cross-country in snowshoes with a pack on her back. 

This is what I call love. 

She lived alone in the depot. I don’t know how many years she did this, but she was so faithful and devoted, our lives were so much more beautiful because of her continuance. Her smile and being was angelic. 

She was both the doctor and the nurse of the Valley, she was the one who was called up when babies were born, when people were sick or injured.

There was a flag train that didn’t stop but it would blow its horn and it would echo all through the valley, a long, lonesome sound. One time when the train horn blew, it spooked the horses my brother was driving and he fell off the buckboard and split his head open on the tracks. My father let the horses go, they ran crazily off until the buckboard overturned. He picked my brother up and carried him to the depot. Grandma Armstrong administered to him, flagged down the train and took my brother to the nearest town that had a doctor, that was in Whitefish.

Years later, in 1923, when we all moved to the newly built town of Whitefish, she moved with us, and retired from the life of selfless love. But she continued, even in town, to care for others—just the same as she did for us on the homestead.



THE OLD 27

One morning we all got in the buckboard and went up at my Aunt Gertie’s, she lived about 5 miles from us. We passed the MacIntyre Ranch. They were well off, they had the nicest place around. They used to have a lot of family come up for barbeques or sit on the front porch and visit. 

It was a long way to my Aunt Gertie’s. There were lots of ruts and rocks in the dirt road The road needed a lot of attention. We climbed up the mountain with its big switch backs, and through the forest until you came to the clearing. They had two cabins at Aunt Gertie’s A one-room for guests, that was us, and a cabin for their home. Their cabin had two whole rooms, a kitchen/dining/living room and a bedroom.

My Uncle Fred and my father and my brother, Fred were going to take a little trip to the railroad station 3/4 of a mile away to get some feed for the animals and some garden tools and seed for my mother. It was spring. We were out of feed.

Everyone would drive right down the tracks to get to the depot. It was very bumpy going over the railroad ties. The depot was a post office and a general store. It was a big platform, well built with milled lumber. All our homes were made of logs. It had real windows, pretty windows. 

Grandma Armstrong, who ran the depot, had her dainty little touches, white starched ruffled curtains. A little table with a white cloth embroidered real fancy. A place that said welcome in the wilderness and everybody from miles around went there. It was the center of all things.  And we’d always stop in for coffee or tea.

My mother and I were to stay with Aunt Gertie while the men took the team to the station. Old Chief and Buck were hitched  to the buckboard.  My brother Fred wanted to ride on the seat, he was six, he was finally old enough for it to be safe. 

We heard the toot of the Old 27 coming down the tracks, coming around the last bend before the station. Where were they? Just crossing the railroad tracks but Old Chief and Buck, when they heard the train, they raised up and bolted and there was a real runaway buckboard for sure. They were on the tracks and the train whistle startled them.

Fred was thrown from the seat onto the tracks and he hit his head, it was split from his temple to his crown and back down the other side. 

Now the Old 27 mail train to Whitefish didn’t stop for mail, it barreled onto the next stop. There was a bag hanging over the tracks that the engineer grabbed as it went by.

Dad jumped off the buckboard and scooped Fred up in his arms and took him to the railroad depot/station  where Grandma Armstrong was waiting. She gathered up some towels and bandaged his head as best as she could and made him ready for the trip into town. 

Uncle Fred ran down the tracks to flag down the train. (It didn’t normally stop there.)  The horses took off and ran away. The buckboard eventually  flipped over, forcing them to stop,

The train stopped and they put my brother Fred in the car. They got him comfortable while Grandma Armstrong telegraphed  ahead to the nearest town for a doctor. They rode to the next town, to Whitefish,  where a doctor was waiting with his black bag and all his tools ready to take care of the wounded. 

They moved Fred onto a baggage card for an operating table—right at the station. The doctor  stitched  Fred up from his temple to his crown. 

After Fred recovered from the surgery, he was given a handful of candy canes. Dad and Fred returned to Fielding on the next train going their way. Mother and Aunt Gertie were waiting with Grandma Armstrong to see how Fred fared from his experience.  We were so happy to see him, with his bandaged head like a turban. Of course, I was delighted to be able to share the candy canes too.

By the time Uncle Fred corralled the horses and they had calmed down enough, it was nearly dark, we were ready to be on our way home where the farm animals were anxiously waiting for their oats and feed as their breakfast had been quite delayed.



OLD CHIEF

It was one morning in the fall of the year. My father saddled up the horses to get our provisions at the railroad station way up the mountain. We had two horses, Old Chief, the Indian horse my father bought from the Blackfoot Indians, in Browning, Montana. The pinto was my brother Fred’s horse. 

There were only two horses and four people to ride them. I was told to ride behind my mother on Old Chief. I held onto the back of the saddle. My mother was in front, with my younger brother Jack, in her arms. We had to ride to the railroad station. We got there just fine. My uncle loaded the supplies onto my brother’s pinto. My brother was laden with all the supplies, and the rest of us were all on the broad back of Old Chief. 

The railroad station was half way up the mountainside and there were so many switchbacks you’d go sideways just to go forward. We were about half way down the mountain when Old Chief’s saddle began to slip and slide. My uncle hadn’t tightened up the cinch. Old Chief knew when things were wrong. He was careful. But we were half way down the mountain side when the saddle began to pitch. I’d slide from side to side on each turn. 

Soon the saddle slid clear under his belly and my mother landed on the ground sitting upright holding the baby in her arms. Old Chief, he just stood there stock still. But me, all fat and roly poly, I tumbled and tumbled down the steep mountainside. I found a bush and held on for dear life and there I was, dangling on the edge of a precipice. Otherwise I would’ve landed in the river below. 

A fisherman heard the ruckus. He dropped everything, his fishing pole, his creel, and  he pulled me to safety. He carried me the rest of the way back up the mountain too. He resaddled the horse, cinched it up tight. I climbed back on again. I wasn’t afraid. We started down the trail toward home, in time for supper, in time to meet my father who was on his way home too. I was only four.



OLD CHIEF AND THE LYNX

It was the fall of the year, around 1918-1919, we were on our return trip from receiving our monthly supplies at the station, and the horses were going at a very easy gait, going homeward. We were all relieved that everything was taken care of for the month and we were on our way home. 

We came to the beginning of the forest and Old Chief, the lead horse, stopped abruptly and he would not move a muscle any farther. Mother patted his head, coaxed him on, but he still wouldn’t move. Mother never had to use a whip on our horses, they always went without too much urging. They always did what the were supposed to do. 

But Old Chief wouldn’t budge. So as Mother raised the whip, she happened to look up, and there on a branch above the trail, was a link ((she says it as link vs. lynx), ready to pounce upon his prey. Horses have an extra sense about them, they sense things before they happen. And once again, Old Chief had saved our lives. 

Mother threw down her whip and gave Old Chief his head. We returned safely back to my uncle’s place. We retraced our steps back to safety, back to our Uncle Fred’s cabin back up the mountain, in Fielding, Montana, you’d think it was heaven in the Rockies. She threw down her whip and gave Old Chief an apple.

When we didn’t return home, my father came looking for us at his brothers place. Uncle Fred kept his rifle on a rack high up, near the ceiling. He filled his coat pockets with ammunition and my father and Uncle Fred took us safely back home. It was about an hour’s journey. We returned safely home.

I was about four or five years old, I remember that, because my aunt lived there too on the homestead. My aunt was left alone all day with little or no conversation. She was so lonely, she’d talk and talk and talk, that’s why I remember the stories so well. She’d come to town, we’d sit at her knee, and she’d tell us the stories again and again and again. 

(That’s why I’m telling these stores now for my little brother, Albert, who didn’t grow up on the homestead. That’s not his real name which is William Henry Stannard but we didn’t like it. We thought he was too grand for that. “Prince Albert” we all called him. And it stuck to this very day.) But the story doesn’t end there. 

For the next six months, my father began to carry his rifle with him daily as he walked back and forth to where he worked at the railroad depot in Fielding. It was about an hour’s journey each way on foot. He saw signs of the lynx following him. If my father happened to stumble and fall when he was walking, then the lynx, thinking he was injured, would attack. That lynx followed my father for six whole months. My father laid traps with meat to catch that big cat but a lynx won’t attack unless its prey is wounded.

One morning, shortly after my father left for work, he returned home to get more ammunition. We went through the fields to where the forest began, a clump of trees, bare-branched poplar. And there was the lynx in his trap, caught by one of his back legs. We could hear him crying, screaming in pain. When he saw us, he reared up on his hind legs, hissed and clawed at the air. We backed off to a safe distance. My father loaded his rifle and got close as he could and waited patiently for the lynx to calm down. He aimed carefully, and with one shot, he shot him between the eyes. 
We had the lynx mounted on the living room wall of our cabin where it hung for years above the couch. I used to love to pet it. The fur was so soft. Who knows, it still might be mounted on someone’s wall to this very day.



HUCKLEBERRY PIE

It was a great day, one of those clear, crisp days when you want to get out and get going where you want to go, and to do everything all at once. You have so much energy you just wanna go, go, go everywhere. Everything just seems to be right. 

We were young, around four or five, and we were going huckleberrying. We got up early and got large lard cans ready to fill up with huckleberries. We were up and ready at dawn. We were out picking early in the morning, at the break of day. 

At first, we ate our fill of huckleberries. There weren’t many going into the lard cans. The berries were plentiful, juicy and delicious. We picked and picked and picked until our lard pails were overflowing. All morning long, and through the day we picked. At lunch time we ate sandwiches and apples under the shade of a tree. After lunch, we started for home, much earlier than expected, with all our berries. More than we needed.

When we got home, Mother went into the kitchen and started making huckleberry pies while we rested on the grass. My brother was whittling whistles from the willow tree. He’d cut the bark loose from the stick and hollow out the center and slide the bark back on again. I was looking for four-leaf clovers. I was always looking for good luck. 

When the pies were done, the whistles completed, I found a four-leaf clover. We looked up and Dad was coming across the fields. We all ran out to meet him. We went into the cabin and ate a meal with delicious pie made with huckleberries we’d picked all by ourselves.


DARLENE

It was early springtime
It was early in the morning
The sun was shining
Trees were blowing in the breeze
It was a lovely day
When my father came in from the barn,
he announced that Bessie was ready.
We didn’t have any shoes or stockings on.
We ran to the barn to see what was going on.
Bessie had a twinkle in her eye.
Quite nervous she was, pacing back and forth.
She was usually so calm and contented.
We all gathered round her.
Mother went to Bessie’s head 
and told her to be quiet.
Everything would be all right.
Bessie said Moo! And there was Darlene 
in my father’s arms.


He tried to stand Darlene on her feet. She’d kneel and fall many times before she was strong enough to stand. Mother kept petting Bessie trying to calm her. Bessie was really contented and delighted with her newborn child. 

It was time for Darlene’s first meal. My father guided her to her mother’s udder and tried to get her to drink. But Darlene wasn’t about to nurse. A bucket of milk was filled. It was quite a chore to get her to eat. My father dipped his hand into the milk and into Darlene’s mouth. She took to his finger, he replaced it with her mother’s teat. Darlene had her first meal. I was five.


PORKY

Our pigs always ran loose, they were like dogs, they were our pets. Wherever we went, our pet Porky had to come too. As usual, my brother Fred was way out ahead. Porky was spoiled rotten, he was always the center of the stage. Whenever he saw my father he had to get to Dad first, not to eat but to greet him. He loved to be patted ans scratched more than he loved food.

Porky chose to travel along with me trotting at a slower pace. No longer a little piglet, he had grown a lot but didn’t know it. We had to cross the creek at the log bridge. It was built like a raft, it didn’t have any sides. But he kept nudging me closer to the edge of the bridge. The water below was gurgling over big rocks and soon there was no bridge left and I went down, down, down into the swirling water. 

Next thing I knew, I was blowing bubbles and splashing water every which way, dog paddling, trying to scream, but I couldn’t make any noise. My father came once again to the rescue. With his big strong arms, he pulled me out just in time for huckleberry pie. Mother was at the door, come running to the door.    



BIG FRED: BULL STORY

It was early in the morning, my brother Fred and I went across the pasture with Dad to milk the cows. As we passed the corral, Big Fred, our steer (destined for future dinners), was wanting to get out. It was such a lovely day and he was quite frisky. We went on our way and went to milk the cows. When we were finished we headed back to our log home cabin. 

But the corral wasn’t big enough for Big Fred. He wanted out, so he pushed on the log fence until it broke and then he started out after us. We were between him and his grass. We were in the way of his field. It’s their nature to charge, to want to pierce you with their horns. They seem to go mad. That’s why they’re dehorned.  Big Fred still had his horns and he knew how to use them.

I stumbled on a rock and Big Fred charged me. He was after us already and we were running for dear life. My brother was faster than me and he was running as fast as he could. I couldn’t keep up with him. I had to go and stumble on a rock. I was getting up and he was charging at me with his hot breath, hot eyes and sharp horns, I felt myself surrounded by Big Fred in all directions. I was trying to get up to get away from Big Fred I turned, only to look into his fierce eyes. I was so scared, I was about to pass out. I thought I was done for.

But just then, my father was at the ready with a pitchfork and came right after him. With his pitchfork, he steered Big Fred in the other direction. I was never so thankful in all my life. I gulped a big breath of fresh air and ran to my mother’s arms. She hugged me closely I was glad that my dad got Big Fred into the barn. He tried to bash it down while my dad fixed the corral. 

Later, Big Fred was put back in his corral, day-dreaming of a time when he was going to get out into all those fields of luscious green grass just there for the eating. Little did he know he was going to be on the dinner table a little sooner than expected.



TINKERBELL

When I was young, I had one brother, Fred, who was my only playmate. There were only about five homes within miles and miles. So we made our own fun with what we had. 

Each year, in the springtime, the shepherds would come through our valley with their sheep and lambs. The youngest lambs were weak, couldn’t take the  travel, so the shepherds would leave us the little lambs. We cared for them, we put them in a box with comfortable things, like our blankets and pillows, and we kept them warm behind the old wood stove.

We would be feeding the lambs all day long, feeding them, little lambs, with a bottle and a rubber nipple. They followed us everywhere, when we played. They’d stay around the house waiting for us to come outside.. 

One night, the coyotes came down from the hills. One frightened little lamb, Tinkerbell, jumped through the window into my bed. It was safe for that one time. But another time the little lamb strayed a little too far from our loving care. The little lamb came up missing. We didn’t have anyone to play with. 

We went out looking for that little lamb, my mother, my brother, me. We searched and searched and searched. We were so tired. We looked and looked, we searched the hillsides, we searched the fields, and the meadows, we searched the creek beds. I got so tired my mother sat me down by a bush and my brother went on ahead searching. It wasn’t long before he came back carrying the collar with a bell, Tinkerbell’s bell.

I was so upset by her loss I was not going to leave that plast where we last saw her until my mother had told me that Tinkerbell had gone to live with the wolves, and on a clear moonlit night I could see them dancing in the moonlight.. When the moon was full I stayed up looking for them.

I was never told what happened to that little lamb. Later, when I was older,  I found out that my brother had found the remains, but no one ever said anything to me.


GOIN FISHIN

My brother, who was older than I,
got to go fishing with our uncle.
I wanted to go fishing too.
But I always had to stay at home.
One special morning it was my turn 
to go fishing with my brother.
I’d been waiting a long time. I was so excited.
Off we took early one morning
to Stannard Creek—it was named after my father.
There was a bend in the stream with a log over it. 
My brother took a willow branch, 
tied strong packing string on it, 
he took a straight pin, bent it almost double
and put a worm on the end of it.
I sat on a log, quiet and peaceful,
my line, with my worm wiggling in the water...
All of a sudden there was a yank,
I screamed, “I caught a fish!” And I fell into the water.
My brother came running, he pulled on the pole
and on the other end was a frog
And that was the end of my fishing days.


SWIM LITTLE FISHIES!

When my grandfather went fishing, 
he never killed the fish.
He’d bring them home live
and give them to my sisters.
They’d put them in the bathtub,
fill it with water.
They’d pat them as if they were pets
and say,  “Swim little fishies, swim!”



DANCING WITH BEARS

It was in the fall of 1919-1920. I was about 5 years old, my brother Fred was 7, there were no more huckleberries left in the mountains. My father and mother had some very important business to take care of in town and Fred and I went to stay with Aunt Gertie and Uncle Fred. 

We had just gotten up in the morning quite early and finished a great breakfast of pancakes and lovely maple syrup, bacon and eggs—our favorite breakfast. Aunt Gertie always did special things when we came over to see her. 

We’d just finished eating, and we were sitting around the table making plans for the day, when some strange noises came from the back of the cabin. Tubs banging. It didn’t make an impression on my brother or me but a worried look came over Aunt Gertie’s face. We’d begged her to play the gramophone many times. This time she let us play with it.

She showed my brother how to crank the Victrola and she soon had us settled. I was dancing with delight. We were having a great time, it was so splendid that we could do it ourselves—we had begged her for so long. Fred was delighted to crank and crank and crank. Aunt Gertie took advantage of the time while we were preoccupied with the gramophone to slip away.

Unbeknownst to us, she went into the other room. took down the shotgun from the rack above the bed, loaded it with shells from the dresser and slipped out the door behind the cabin to confront a grizzly. She waited for her chance, aiming very carefully, she took one shot and got him right between the eyes.

We were still dancing to the funny music. We didn’t hear anything. My aunt came in with the gun, she was white-faced and shaking all over. She didn’t tell us what had happened, how dangerous it was. She just sat at the table a long time composing herself. When she got over the shock of it, she knew she had a real bear story to tell.  

And all the while, we just kept on dancing and cranking the phonograph. If she hadn’t shot the bear, it would’ve torn the whole cabin down looking for food: the bacon, pancakes, the eggs and the syrup. 

She didn’t know that I would also have a bear story to tell too like the one I’m telling you right now.



HUNTING LODGE

When we lived on the homestead in Fielding, Montana,
my father would take people from back east
on hunting trips in the wintertime
In a photo, I remember visitors from New York—
they were all lawyers and doctors—
I remember they had pictures taken of their hunting trip
I got to observe them setting it all up.
The animals they shot were hung on the fence.
He’d gather them all up together for a photo.

We had a log fence, we’d throw saddles on it and sit on them. 
He took the animal rugs from the living room  and the hides,
hung them over a stump some bushes 
to make them look real, like live animals.
They all got their guns out—you had to have a gun in those days—
and dressed themselves up in their hunting outfits and boots 
and all draped with our living room rugs...
it made for an authentic looking background of their hunting trip.

They used a big old-fashioned black box on stilts.
The photographer covered up his head with a cloth
and he’d look out these two holes...
In one hand he held a tray trough filled with white powder
which made a flash of light when it was lit.
It was all such a mystery to me.
They took the camera with them back to New York
and used to photographs for advertisements for future trips.

Those pictures were in an album for years
but my brother was leaving home, so they went with him...
I would love to have some of those photos now


A KNOCK AT THE DOOR

It was the fall of the year and everyone was getting ready, thinking of Christmas. My mother was sewing away on the Singer making Raggedy Anns for gifts. We were sitting on the bed looking at a catalogue for what we wanted. It was so quiet. My father had gone into town getting supplies. He was getting my gift that night.

All of a sudden there was a knock at the door. Mother asked, “Who’s there?” No answer. Another knock. 3 times. Mother got her gun down from the mantle, loaded it, ready and prepared. When the knock cam to the door again, she said, “If you don’t answer when I count to 3, I’ll shoot. I have a gun aimed at the door, aimed at your head.” 

We lived out in the wilds and thieves would come to steal your horses, steal your chickens, or eggs, steal you clean. When no answer came, she opened fire and shot straight through the door. 

We hid under the table and came out slowly and ran to tour mother’s skirts. We held on for dear life. We felt so protected under our mother’s care. 

We heard steps leaving the porch and you could hear the crunch of their footsteps in the icy snow as they disappeared down the road.  We stayed clear of the windows and doors for some time. She made a hole right through the door.



UNREST IN THE HENHOUSE

There was a great unrest in the henhouse. We couldn’t figure out what was wrong with our chickens. They weren’t laying. They were nervous, walking back and forth, flapping their wings, making unusual noises for chickens.  Even the rooster was  walking cocky and making strange noises. The hens weren’t making their quota with eggs. 

We thought what to do...It didn’t seem to be animals bothering them. No sign of wolves or weasels or foxes. We kept on observing the henhouse. Mother was out looking for eggs and high up in the sky was a speck spiraling around and around in a black circle. It was a hawk. 

She goes in, gets her rifle, cocks it, loads it, and went out to the henhouse to get the hawk. We’d already lost 6 of our best laying hens and that made a huge hole in our breakfast. There was snow on the ground. My brother and I stayed close to Mother, to be safe. 

The old hawk came down and swooped taking a hen. It was gone so quick, my  mother’s heart almost fell. To get that hawk was impossible. “He was back before, he’ll be back again.” 

Mother was out, ready for him to circle. She waited her turn, and she shot, getting her hawk, but the gun backfired. She fell to the ground bleeding, It cut, her , making a “J” above her lip. My brother reached into his pocket and gave her a nice white handkerchief and pressed it on her lip. When she came to, we helped her to the house.

When you’re living in the wilds with animals, there’s always something going on. Your gun is your friend. It meets every stranger who comes to your home . And every animal. As a rule, they don’t get past the gate. They meet the gun first. She got her hawk that day.






HUCKLEBERRIES

It was in the fall of 1919-1920. I was about 5 years old, my brother Fred was 7, there were no more huckleberries left in the mountains. My father and mother had some very important business to take care of in town and Fred and I went to stay with Aunt Gertie and Uncle Fred. 

We had just gotten up in the morning quite early and finished a great breakfast of pancakes and lovely maple syrup bacon and eggs—our favorite breakfast. Aunt Gertie always did special things when we came to see her. 

We’d just finished eating, and were sitting around the table making plans for the day when some noises came from the back of the cabin. Tubs banging. It didn’t make an impression on my brother or me but a worried look came over Aunt Gertie’s face. We’d begged her to play the gramophone many times. 

She showed my brother how to crank the Victrola and she soon had us settled. I was dancing with delight. We were having a great time, it was so splendid that we could do it ourselves—we had begged her for so long. Fred was delighted to crank and crank and crank. Aunt Gertie took advantage of the time while we were preoccupied with the gramophone.

She went into the other room. took down the shotgun from the rack above the bed, loaded it with some shells from the dresser and slipped out the door behind the cabin and confronted a grizzly. She waited for her chance, aiming very carefully, and took one shot and got him right between the eyes 

We were still dancing to the funny music. My aunt came in with the gun, shaking all over. She didn’t tell us what had happened, how dangerous it was. She just sat at the table a long time composing herself. When she got over the shock of it, she knew she had a real bear story to tell.  

And we just kept on dancing and cranking the phonograph. If she hadn’t shot it, it would’ve torn the whole cabin down looking for food: the bacon, pancakes, the eggs and the syrup. She didn’t know that I would also have a bear story to tell too like the one I’m telling you right now.

Madeline Bedal



When I was about 22, we went huckleberrying. We kept in contact with signals. I had a lot of berries and I heard this crush, crush, crush of the leaves behind me and I felt his breath on my back. I turned around and stared at him. He just stood there and looked at me, with both front paws resting on the rotted log. A great big black grizzly. I just went back to picking berries. What else could I do? He climbed up on the log and he got down and he took off. Then the others started calling me: “There’s a bear! There’s a bear! Time to go home.”

* * *

I was home from college one summer and I took a job as a governess to an 11-year-old girl. Her parents worked for the government on an Indian reservation. Everything I did she was supposed to do. Everything I learned, she was supposed to learn. Weekly, we’d go camping  

One night we were going into Glacier Park. my boss came home to tell me how to fish. I read up on it before I went to sleep and thought, “I can do that!” I dreamt I was fishing just like the book said. I threw in my line and caught a fish. I threw it over my shoulder and It landed right in the paws of a cougar I didn’t know was there. In the morning we got down to the stream, I was telling them about my dream. 

We found an ideal spot. I thought, “here goes nothing?” I threw out my line and darned if I didn’t get a fish! I remembered my dream. The fish was so huge I couldn’t handle it. All the fishermen were telling me how to bring it in and it was flopping all over. I put my foot on it but it slipped away so I sat on it until I was almost as wet as the fish And after struggling with it for 15 minutes. I finally hit it with a stick and a rock. So I had my fish for breakfast, a big rainbow trout but all the fishermen had left, because I’d made so much noise, they said that all the fish had left too.

Madeline Bedal


It was one morning in the fall of the year. My father saddled up the horses to get our provisions at the railroad station way up the mountain.. We had two horses, Old Chief, the Indian horse my father bought from the Blackfeet Indians, in Browning, Montana.. The pinto was my brother’ Fred’s horse. 

There were only two horses and four people to ride them.  I was told to ride behind my mother on Old Chief. I held onto the back of the saddle. My mother in front, with my younger brother Jack in her arms. We had to ride to the railroad station. We got there fine. My brother was on his pinto with all the supplies, we were all on Old Chief. 

The railroad station was half way up the mountainside and there were  so many switchbacks you’d go sideways to go forward. We were about half way down the mountain when the saddle began to slip and slide. My uncle hadn’t tightened up the cinch. Old Chief knew  when things were wrong. He was careful. We were half way down the mountain side when the saddle began to pitch. I’d slide from side to side on each turn. 

Soon the saddle slid clear under his belly and my mother landed sitting upright holding the baby in her arms. Old Chief, he just stood there. But me, all fat and roly poly, I tumbled and tumbled down the mountainside. I found a bush and held on for dear life and there I was, dangling on the edge of a precipice. 

Otherwise I would’ve landed in the river below. A fisherman heard the ruckus . He dropped everything, his fishing pole, his creel, and  pulled me to safety. He carried me the rest of the way back up the mountain too. He resaddled the horse, cinched it up tight. I climbed back on again. I wasn’t afraid. We started down the trail toward home, in time for supper, in time to meet my father who was on his way home too. I was only four.

Madeline Bedal



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© 2005 Madeline Stannard Bedal, Westlake Country Inn 
These stories were developed with Maureen Hurley
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FIELDING, MONTANA

Just southeast of Glacier national Park,there’s a whistlestop and a tunnel that goes clear through the Rockies. My father worked on the tracks to keep them clear of any debris, rocks or snow. The Great Northern Railroad ran from Spokane to Chicago. In winter, there would be ice, snow sides and all of that track had to be kept clean heast of Glacier N and Mclean. there would be ice, snow sides, falling rock,  that track had to be kept small d ran from Spokane to Chicago, and iand uncle 

I was born in 1914 near of what was later to become the town of Whitefish. We moved soon after to the homestead, only it wasn’t called Fielding yet. It’s since been renamed Blacktail, after the Indians who live there.near that whistlestop, . There werre amny other places along the line that have disappeareed.clear of any debris. worked on thosethe railroad linesfter the Indians who live therelong since disappeare

One of my earliest memories is of my father cutting down trees while my mother trimmed the branches. They built our home from scratch. It was long, like three cabins string together with a woodshet attached top the kitchen.y mother trimmed the branches. From those trees, t with a woodshed

The kitchen was the room you lived in because it was so large and the only room that was warm in winter. We nailed appleboxes up on the log walls for cabinets, with a curtain fringe. We had a nice big storebought maple table with six matching chairs. In one corner was a butter churn the size of a small child. We always had plenty of fresh butter.

On the woodburning stove there was a hot water resevoir built right on the side of the stove.The stove had a firebox ot one side and a warming closet above it. summer and winter I was bornmany with one of those double handle sawsand an overn with 

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The bark was shaved off the logs and the were notched and lasid down like lLincoln logs. They cut out the woondows after it was builtre notched and lasid down just like Lincoln LHour homereally three cabins striu attached toWithTyre notched and laThe cracks were caulked and a preesvative added. They cut out the wo. We had real windows.e cracks were caulked and a preserThey cut out the holes for the wi Not like some.O The back door was nailed together with 2 by 4’s, with a leather strap for a handle. 

 We also had a copper boiler on top of the stove. .

We saved our flour sacks, we’d wash them in Fels Naptha on the stove and the sacks would come out all clean and white, and we’d use them for curtains. 

For a sink, we had a basin and pail to wash our hands. We used a ladel to get cleanwater, it was the communal cup, we all drank out of it.

kept A coffee pot_the granite one—cast iton pots and skillets. And several irons on the backside of the stove always at the readyBraided rugs on the floor.


The outhouse was way out back. In the house, if you had to go, there was a slop jar.  You dug a deep hole, and hoped you didn’t fall  in after it was lined with quicklime. Onece I spilled lime on my dress and it ate it all up. I was so sorry aas dresses were hard tro come by. built the outhouse around it. or  or the train would derail.it was lined with quicklimeThet On or the train would derailthey and safe  on the homestead folks made from floursacks-on A coffee pot—the granite one—cast irall soap G  No indoor plumbing.and hoped you didn’t fall . Then youthe hole ate it all up. I was so sorry always Park, there’swhistle stopwhistle stopwerestrungapple boxesflour sackswood burningreservoirovenladleto

So many details and I haven’t even gotten to the living room yet.FIELDING, MONTANA ( IINTRODUCTION)


Just southeast of Glacier National Park, there’s a small whistle stop and a tunnel that goes clear through the Rockies. The Great Northern Railroad ran from Spokane to Chicago, and in winter, there would be ice, snow sides, or falling rock. All of that track had to be kept clear of any debris or the train would derail. My father and uncle worked on those tracks and they saw to it that the railroad lines were kept clean and safe summer and winter.

I was born in 1914 near of what was later to become the town of Whitefish. We moved soon after I was born to the homestead, near that whistle stop, only it wasn’t called Fielding yet. It’s since been renamed Blacktail, after the Indians who live there. There were many other places along the line that have long since disappeared.

One of my earliest memories on the homestead is of my father cutting down trees with one of those double handle saws with my mother on the other end. There was a sort of a rhythm you had to get into: back and forth, or it wouldn’t work. My mother trimmed the branches while my father debarked the trees. 

With those trees, they built our home from scratch. The bark was shaved off the logs and they were notched and laid down just like Lincoln Logs. The cracks were caulked with plain old mud and a preservative added to the logs—creosote?  They cut out the holes for the windows after it was built. We had real windows. Not like some folks. The back door was nailed together with 2 by 4’s, with a leather strap for a handle. 

Our home was long, really three cabins strung together with a woodshed attached to the kitchen. The kitchen was the room you lived in because it was so large and the only room that was warm in winter. We nailed apple boxes up on the log walls for cabinets, with a curtain fringe made from flour sacks. 

We had a nice big store-bought maple table with six matching chairs. In one corner was a butter churn the size of a small child. We always had plenty of fresh butter. We all took our turns churning the butter but during thunderstorms butter wouldn’t set and even Bessie wouldn’t give us much milk for butter. 

On the wood burning stove there was a hot water reservoir built right on the side of the stove.  The stove had a firebox on one side and an oven with a warming closet above it. It was brand new, the latest invention. We always had the nicest fresh bread and butter with onions.

We also kept a copper boiler on top of the stove. A coffee pot—the granite one—cast iron pots and skillets. And several irons on the backside of the stove always at the ready. They had a special handle that clamped on. Tuesday was ironing day. Monday was wash day and Wednesday was baking day. Saturday was for cleaning house and on Sundays we went to church. 

We saved all our flour sacks, we’d wash them in Fels Naptha soap on the stove and the sacks would come out all clean and white, and we’d use them for curtains and clothing. Braided rugs on the floor. Gunney sacks at the stoop and at the door to wipe your feet. 

For a sink, we had a basin on a bench and a pail to wash our hands. We used a ladle to get clean water, it was the communal cup, we all drank out of it. No indoor plumbing. A small round mirror hung over the kitchen bench. You stood in line to part your hair. 

The view from the kitchen windows was of the fields that Dad had cleared. I remember the trees turning different colors with the seasons. I’d watch squirrels scamper up the trees and the birds flying.  Big clouds in the distance. The animals in the yard. The chickens, Porky. Bessie and Big Fred in the pasture. I stood by that stove looking out, Tinkerbell in her gunneysack lined apple box was nearly always asleep. The little lamb couldn’t have a  nice soft flour sack because we were all wearing them. 

The outhouse was way out back. You dug a deep hole, and hoped you didn’t fall in after it was lined with quicklime. Then you built the outhouse around the hole. Once I spilled lime on my dress and it ate it all up. I was so sorry as dresses were hard to come by. In the house, if you had to go, there was always a slop jar. 

So many details and I haven’t even gotten to the rest of the house yet. 

The bedroom had two big double beds. it was divided with a door in the middle. We had kerosene lamps on stands to light the room. Dad and Mother each had a trunk with all their treasures inside. 

Don’t know why we even had a living room. Things in there were a little nicer. It was always kept clean for folks to visit. It had the prettiest rugs, the most colorful curtains. There were straigthback chairs. The lynx was hung on the wall. Mother kept her Singer treadle sewing machine in the living room. She did all her sewing there but it was cold. No potbelly stove. The kitchen was the warmest room, we all lived there. It was the heart of the house.

Now I guess it’s time to tell you about my family. 

S, we our flour sacks. Win 1914, d:Columbia, Browning, Haver, Glacier park Station.rocking ndows In one corner, Thad  built right on the side of it; it made a lovely sandwichraw pper boiler on top of the stove; a old kind— and were mending and 

Well, whenever the preacher came to visit on orseback on his route through Fielding. He would stop at each anevery homesteadwas Sunday. He’d come n his route through Fielding and he’dd water. Therehe view from the kitchen windowThe log fences, the trees, wildflowers and fields, mountains, the stream and the bridge where Porky pushed me off. ains, the stream and the bridge near the barn To make an outhouse, ybuildmakebeds. Iith all their treasures inside.We loved to go through them, we memorized the memorabiloa. In my mother’s trunk, a crazy quilt made of all colors and embroidered alll around, I still have it. it was my hreat-great-great Grandmother Backhaus’s quilt. I In my father’s trunk was a picture album of family ancestors. His was rounded wooden trunk my mother’s had leather straps and was slatted woood an metal. It was painted dark blue with gold trim. They that doubled as seats with a throw on top. those trunks so muchorabiloa. In my mother’s trunk was  it was my gtrunk a dfancy  stays It was more like a trophy room with all the stuffed animals and furs mounted on the walls and floors. We had a big grizly rug on the floor, we used to lie on it with our head resting on it’s head. I was the second child. My brother Fred was two years older, born on the eve of Christmas Eve.We always celebrated hisson the t with our head resting on itTthe living roomcehingspelt than a living rooom celebrated his birthday on Christmas Eve. My birthday was May 14, we didn’t have parties because there was no one my age around to invite. on the homesteads



When we later movd to Whitfish in 1923, my mother gave me my first party. My sister maxine And my youngest brother “Prince Albert” were born in WEhitefish. “Prince Albert” wasn’t his real name but I will tell yoou that story later. 

My only brother born on the homestead was Janc, he was two years younger than me and we moved to Whitefish soon after. I remember when he was born. My mother wasn’t feeling well, Dad had gone off to work and to get my Aunt Gertie. Mother sent us outside to keep out of mischief. Well, lunchtime came and went and it got later and later.She told us to stay outside until she called for us. We were so hungry my brother Fred went into the kitchen but he couldn’t find anything to eat. All he could find was salt, pepper and sugar. ind was salt, pepper and sugar. He milked Bessie and mixed the salt, pepper and sugar with the milk. I was waiting for something good. I didn’t like his cooking at all. 

Aunt gertie still haden’t come, we waited outside for her so we could go into the houseI was so hungry. Aunt Gertie still hadee. My brother was born and we were kept out. We almost made ourself sick on Fred’s cooking. Fred climbed up and jumped off the hay mowtop of the . He came out all right. Then it was my turn. I couldn’t see myself jumping a good storye to the ground so I climbed back down the way I’d come up. 

By the time my aoaunt calle dus iit was getting dark. She gave us a good meal and put us to bed. That nioght my brother was born.bia, Browning, Haver, Glacier pPJACK’s BIRTH

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not to come into the house,  a half a cup oftasted it and I ertie still hadnbeing Bored, the barn to see myself jumping a good storeyBy the time my aoaunt calle meal and put us to bed. That niMy sister MBy the time my while we were jumping off the barn,  Wee just sniffed our noses and walked right by the crib, noses out of joint “Prince Albert” were born in Winto the house, it.  We came into the house ands and walked right by the crib We didn’t even look at jack. We didn’t even look at Jis real name but I will tell yo Iinside. Wememorabiliaall around—itwoodroomcelebratedlunch timeourselves
it well So snuck  to eat’d and eathere m of the houseNo food. It was cold. 

the barn tHere, , smaller than this piece of paperand north of Kalispell, 

No food. It was acold December day, the ground was all spongy from frost

from freezing. But it was nice and warm in the barn. The hay and the animals made it cozy.

was bired and loft A I came out the barn door, there was Aunt Gertie coming through the field. We were so overjoyed to see her, we knew we’d finally get into the house. We ran to greet her and went into the house with her.  We didn’t know there was a baby on the way. We hadn’t been told.  But she told us to wait in the barn a while longer.  anythingWhen our mother said something, we obeyed. ther said something, we obeyed or it was the switch. Fs on foot. She never rode on horseback

We were so glad to get into the house, we were anxious to see our mother too. But we were so tired weAunt Gertiewas nice and warm in the barn. But t hay mowï‡\

Friday, October 21, 2005

Lael Sorenson: names, when I was young, lost

NAMES

My mother was looking in the newspaper and she saw a picture of a most beautiful bride named Lael and she named me Lael. She hoped a little beauty would rub off on me, but it never did. Someone told me it was a name in the Bible. I looked all through it, before I finally found it in Ecclesiastes, but it referred to a man. And it appeared only once, it means “of God.” it’s from Elwhym—what God was called. It’s been a good name but I’ve had to explain it to everyone all my life.

—Lael Sorenson


DURING THE DEPRESSION

I lived on a farm, we went through the Great Depression. People in cities were jumping out of buildings, but we were lucky on the farm. We all knew we needed and depended on each other. The town and the farms together had it all. We did learn to live with nature, to utilize what we cold get. But I remember my father sitting bunched up on the front porch in the rain. He said; “The storm will beat our wheat to the ground. We’ll never be able to harvest it.” But we always got by. We had food, we had a cooperative enterprise. We shared what we had.

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We had an ornery white bull who used to get out and run all around the town. He was white, ugly and horrible. It seems every time I turned down a street, there he was, waiting. Everyone in town was afraid of that bull. He was always escaping, it was a regular occurrence. My uncle Leon had to keep fixing the fence, it was too low. I think he ended up on the dinner plate too.

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I grew up in Utah near Mount Nebo. I remember, in some of those little towns there were only 2 or 3 phones for the whole town. In our town, Mona, there was only one phone, at my Aunt Hazel’s. We used to pay her a quarter. It would always be for something serious, like for a doctor , I used to have to go to Aunt Hazel’s to use the phone. You had to crank it all the while you were talking. Now, we take so much for granted. Everything is instant. In those days it took a long tome getting the news. Days, weeks before some folks got the news.

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When I was young, I used to love to wade in the field ditches on hot summer days. There was a place near my folks’ home where it was pretty wide, and it would gurgle. One time it was so hot I took all my clothes off. And a neighbor friend ran to my house screaming, Lael’s swimming without any clothes on!

I loved to wade in the field ditch on the way home from school or I used to leave my shoes where I went in and wade all the way home. When it was Sunday, time to go to church, my mother discovered I had no shoes. I only had one pair. We’d have to go along the ditch to find them.

Later, my folks knew they had to get up extra early on Sundays in order to find Lael’s shoes. I guess I spent the whole summer with no shoes on. I went barefoot everywhere.

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Long underwear and long socks, how I hated them. I’d walk to school and as soon as I was out of sight, I’d roll them down and go to school with huge cuffs on my socks.

—Lael Sorenson


BIRD ON A WIRE

I once wrote a story, “Heedless Hattie.” It was my own story, based on my life. My parents always said, “Think before you act.” But I never did. (I still don’t think before I act.) I wrote it in a class, and my teacher said, “Develop it into a story.”

I was always in trouble. I was curious about everything. If I didn’t understand it, I’d seek it out. One morning, we had snow so heavy that some of the power lines were broken. I was in 5th grade. We’d been talking about electricity earlier that week. There were all these birds on the line. And I wondered: How come they could do that? How come they didn’t get electrocuted?

Across from the school, there was a great big coil like a black snake hissing. I just saw that red thing lying there. I could see all the red coming out of the end. I asked my friend George, “ How can the birds be alive up there?” (I was told never to touch a wire.)

Well, it was in a pool of water. When I touched it, I couldn’t get off. George couldn’t help me or he’d get stuck too. I had sparks running all through my body. I thought, “God won’t let me die.” And I fell away from the electricity. I could feel a surge of power coming up from my arm to my body.

I yelled to George, “Get me loose! Get me loose!” I could see him reaching out to touch my hand but the he pulled it back. I fell over on my side, away from it and broke the current.

All the old bums sitting at Uncle Ed’s store came running down to see if I was dead. I was ashamed, I was OK. I put on a bold front, pretended I was fine. “I’m all right, I’m OK.” I was brusque about it. I went to school, feeling bad. I went out to the loo, and snuck home.

When I got home, my mother said, “Lael, you touched that wire.” The electrician called my father and said, “She should be dead. The only thing that saved her was the water. It drew off the electricity and she fell away from it.”

I wrote about it. I should’ve called it, “Curious, fortunate to be alive.”

—Lael Sorenson


I was thinking about Mexico. There’s a pyramid somewhere in southeast Mexico. I was middle-aged, and we decided to climb to the top. You felt like you were on a mountain. But coming down all those steps took so much effort. I just wanted to slide down. I loved seeing the evidence of early people. Indications of writing. I wanted to know what it said.

There’s a spot in southern Utah where you can see a big wall, part of a mountain covered with writing. The people who lived there, left signs, writing of animals. Another world. I was old enough to have respect for that what had gone on before me. It’s a thrilling experience to come up to a cliff and to think someone had chiseled pictographs on that surfce so many years, centuries, before. It lets you know that there have been people here who’ve left their mark for later civilizations to ponder.

It’s like with Yellowstone. You see all that water gushing out of the ground, you look down and see little pools gushing and boiling, you have to restrain yourself from jumping in.

—Lael Sorenson


9/16//05 Labor Day Customs

My mother took Labor Day seriously. We had a farm but lived in Mona, Utah. Relatives from Salt Lake City would all jump into the car and drive down to the farm and Mother had to cook for them. In the morning there were hordes of people for breakfast. There were 8-10 people eating and eating. I had a cousin Will, who’d eat a huge breakfast, get up, stretch, and eat some more. And then he’d say, “well Aunt Zelda, I think I’ll run around the house. I’m ready for breakfast now.”Mother would cook a beef potroast with potatoes and onions, vegetables and carrots. homemade biscuits & jelly.

Everybody’d sleep outside on our lawn. People would be sleeping on the front porch, on the back lawn, wherever they could. All the kids had Labor Day fever, we’d decide whose lawn to sleep on ((our house was in town) There was always rivalry between us girls and the boys. They’d bring over dogs or cats to bother us and the girls would all jump up and move to someone else’s lawn. The day after Labor Day, all our relatives left and we really did labor. My mother canned pears, applesauce, green beans, and made jelly. We grew our own grapes, picked them off the vine.

My father had an apple orchard so we picked apples too. Post Labor Day meant washing the bottles, putting them upside down in a steam bath. She’d can about 20 bottles a day. For me, it was a relief to go back to school, it meant I didn’t have to can. I had to run out and get fuel for the fires—it was a kitchen stove. It was a relief when Labor Day was over. Labor Day was a hard day, It was a relief to go back to school. Those city kids were spoiled, the felt they were one level above us, the never helped out.

—Lael Sorenson

We always ran home to look at the moon. We’d spread our quilts out and watch it, it was so bright, it was almost like a sun.

—Lael Sorenson

For those of us who grew up in the country, biscuits were extra special. If you lived on a farm there was always something to do. They were always pushed for time. They generally made common food. If she had time, my mother would make something special. So when biscuits came along, we knew it was an extra special day. We ate them with honey and butter, or white gravy, it was all ours, all home grown and homemade.

Growing up on the farm, we watched our mother do many chores. Sometimes she’d milk the cattle. She didn’t like doing it but she sometimes did it so my father could get away to go hunting, which was pretty rare. If she didn’t do it, my father couldn’t go hunting as thre was nobody else to milk the cows.

I remember watching my mother thinking how smart she was, how she knew how to do most anything. She could drive the horses (after they were harnessed up), milk the cows, separate the cream, make butter, make cheese, gather eggs, grow and can fruits and vegetables. She used all those things to make a little extra money.

When I wanted to go to school in Provo, Father said we can’t send her to school. We have no money.” She said, “I’ll make more butter and eggs and cheese to sell, I can can fruit. We can send Lael to school. We’ll send food and she can live with a family. And those were the things she did. She had a way of being positive about everything and she always found a way to do it.

—Lael Sorenson


10/21/05    When  I was 7

When I was 7, I wanted to be a movie star. I had a friend, Arlene, and when we were 6 or 7, we took a stick and drew in the dirt, we made a house with a stage and then we’d try to act. Arlene was excellent at acting but I wasn’t. She would always be queen. I would walk up the porch steps and kneel before her because she was the queen. Sometimes I got to be queen for a week and she would bow down give obeisance to me.

At school, my first grade teacher put on special programs so the community could see what we were up to. But by that time I had become very shy so I didn’t participate. I had my chance but... I looked into the mirror. I didn’t see anything queenly. I didn’t see anything beautiful. Arlene looked like an actress, she had beautiful curly hair. Mine hung down straight.

Every morning I went over to her house on the way to school, and her mother would be curling her hair with a curling iron. And whenever Arlene dropped her chin, her mother would whack her on the head with the curling iron. I told my mother that it was all right that I didn’t have curly hair. I didn’t want to get whacked in the head.

Over the years, I lost track of Arlene. I overcame my shyness and became a teacher, first in Utah for 10 years, then here 30 years in Fremont. In a sense, I was 40 years on stage. I taught every grade from kindergarten to 8th grade. I really enjoyed it. 

—Lael Sorenson

I got my first real stage break in the 60s, there was a massive teachers’ strike over tax cuts and funding. I was on the Can DO Committee. They all said, “Lael, you’ve got to give the keynote speech ‘cause you’re the smartest.” I said I can’t. but I said I can Do! and I gave that speech. And you know what? They all stood up at the end and gave me applause. A standing ovation! I said: “We can do. We must be together, we can accomplish anything.” At that point, I commanded my subjects. They later gave me an award, “Our Spokesman” One teacher said, ”You know Lael, I hated every word you said.” I spun around to face him and said, ”Tough!” That was when I was truly queen for a day.

—Lael Sorenson

I taught kindergarten. One year, we had all the children sitting under the Christmas tree, One little fellow saw a shiny barrel and he took it apart and put it back together. I was amazed at how curious he was, it was like watching myself as a child. When I taught kindergarten, each child brought a blanket for naps and I’d turn the lights down low. I was always saying, “Be quiet!” Then I heard one kid say, “Hubba.” What’s this” Then I heard it again: hubba-hubba. So I said, “Shhh!” And before you knew it, every kid was saying hubba-hubba and I didn’t even know what it meant. Then I watched that kid taking that barrel apart, and I thought, oh well! Who needs a nap? Then it was hubba-hubba all over. Well, a teacher told me, this year, it’s “vagina-vagina.” Imagine that! Where do they get these words? We often don’t realize the lessons we’re teaching. Those little children are always watching and absorbing information all the time.

—Lael Sorenson



I was thinking about a wedding gown too. My cousin lent me hers. I was married in a little town in Utah called Mona. There was nowhere to buy a wedding gown. Helen said, “Oh Lael, I’d be happy to lend it to you.” It was white and lacy and long with long sleeves. Helen and I were both the same build. My mother often made both mine and Helen’s school dresses. The dress was lacy and sheer. I was so happy to accept her offer because we didn’t have any money. It’s hard to make people today understand what the Depression was like. There was a saying, If you’re strong at all, you made the best of it you can. We did have a reception and dance. I was married in a church hall, Ward’s recreation room. I was 22 years old, I was going to school at Brigham Young University. He came from the north. We met at school. We were both in line waiting to borrow $300 for tuition. We got to talking and next afternoon we were both at a matinee dance. He was dancing with a friend & when he saw me, he said, “Pardon me Miss Ellison, you’re going to finish this dance with me.” And that was the beginning of a beautiful friendship. Every time I was walking to the upper campus, he was walking down, so he’d pass me notes. At first I wasn’t that interested in him. I had a boyfriend. Keith was out of school that semester earning money. I lived with my grandmother and when she saw Wayne courting me, she said, “I can see you’re gone on Wayne. It looks like Keith’s going to lose out.” She saw it before I did. He was a man used to getting what he wanted, and so he did.

—Lael Sorensen


I was a school teacher, I taught school for 40 years. One of the nicest things about teaching, was that you had the summer off. I married a man in education, when he wasn’t going to school at Stanford, he had most of the summer off too. We traveled the world. We went to El Salvador, to Norway, Copenhagen, Egypt. Every time we went to a new place I bought a memoir. In my home I had two memoir cases filled with things from my travels, along with a couple of dolls. I don’t know how many miles Wayne and I traveled, but when we returned, our family always gathered to greet us. That was as exciting as traveling. One of the reasons why I wanted to see the world was because I was a teacher. I can say my teaching took me to see the world. I wanted to know it personally, firsthand, for myself. One of the most interesting places of all was the Great Wall of China, the only man made monument that can be seen from the moon

—Lael Sorenson


Have you ever been to China? You must got there. I’ve been there three times. The first time I went to China, I went to Beijing to the Emperor’s Palace. The first time I went to China they were all riding bicycles, they were riding horses and carts. The second time they had a few cars. The third time, it was as busy and congested as California with all those cars and no place to go. Imagine, you can see the Great Wall from the moon. And we walked on it from one end to the other. It’s a thrill to walk on the Great Wall. We’d take a train and walk and walk all day long and then took the train back to the city. About China, it’s such a large place, you fly from place to place, it’s so interesting to see China from the air. I’d like to go again. 

—Lael Sorensen. 10/13/06



When I was a child I liked to wade in the ditch that ran by the side of our house. I’d follow it up to the bench where we had agricultural fields, where it was shallow, and we would take off our shoes and socks and wade in this ditch. It was rapid and deep by our house so we never waded there. It was too dangerous. We weren’t supposed to go in the ditch. I got interested in the flowers along the way home and then come Sunday, I’d remember that I didn’t have my shoes (I must’ve only had one pair of shoes). I’d say, “I don’t know where my shoes are.” My mother would say, “You were wading in the ditch again, weren’t you, Lael.” I’d say, “Yes, but they’re not wet.” We’d have to go back and get them. It made it so we’d barely make it to church. I couldn’t exactly go barefoot. It was Sunday. Sunday was different. I was going to get all dressed up. All the rest of the days were the monotonously the same. They never spanked me for leaving my shoes, but I’m sure they’d never do a thing like that on a Sunday. After I’d find my shoes, I’d walk with my father right down the middle of the road and off we’d go to church. My mother stayed home to cook our big Sunday dinner. There was no problem with my disappearing shoes. But I must’ve gone barefoot during the week & no one noticed.

—Lael Sorensen

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Madeline Stannard Bedal Chapbook



Madeline Bedal was a student of mine at Westlake/Merrill Gardens, an assisted living retirement home in Fremont, CA, where I taught a memoir class. It began as a poetry writing workshop but nobody was particularly interested. I tried out all kinds of writing exercises with them. I brought in Big Band music (a hit) and memorabilia, I worked with themes— anything to spark their creativity. So many of my elderly patients were very nearly brain dead from lack of stimulation. I struck gold when I stumbled upon the memoir process.

Madeline, who was legally blind, dictated everything to me. She grew up in Whitefish, Montana, where she led a pioneer life, rich in memory and tradition. When she died, I was devastated as I had become quite fond of her. Her brother, Bill Stannard made a chapbook of her work, which I never knew about until after her death in November 29, 2006. Kudus, Madeline. Bill said that he sent the manuscript to Montana Arts Council, I don’t know whether or not he did that. I would like to think so. The Pruneyard in San Jose was once the Bedal Ranch. There is one tiny road named in memory of the ranch. I hope to find more of her pieces and post them, so this is a placeholder. Though he sent me the letter in 2006 I decided to post it in 2005 when he sent it out to all their relatives.

—Maureen Hurley See also: Della Madeline Stannard Bedal obituary












Apparently her daughter retyped the stories for a chapbook, so the order and text may differ. Since my Fielding Stories file is corrupted, I'm glad to have them. I was very careful not to alter Madeline's prose so I read her Storiesies aloud and she made corrections. I don't know if her daughter "improved" the stories. I think not. I only hope that they got to the Montana Historical Society.

FIELDING, MONTANA INTRODUCTION

Just southeast of Glacier National Park, in Montana, there's a small whistle stop and a tunnel that goes clear through the Rockies. The Great Northern Railroad ran from Spokane to Chicago, and in winter, there would be ice, snow slides, or falling rock. All of that track had to be kept clear of any debris or the train would derail. My father and uncle worked on those tracks and they saw to it that the railroad lines were kept clean and safe summer and winter.

I was born in 1914, near of what was later to become the town of Whitefish. Soon after I was born, we moved to the homestead, near that whistle stop, only it wasn't called Fielding yet. It's since been renamed Blacktail, after the Indians who live there. There were many other places along the line that have long since disappeared: Haver, Columbia, Browning, Glacier Park Station.

One of my earliest memories on the homestead is of my father cutting down trees with one of those double handled saws with my mother on the other end. There was a sort of a rhythm you had to get into: rocking back and forth, or it wouldn't work. My mother trimmed the branches while my father debarked the trees.

With those trees, they built our home from scratch. The bark was shaved off the logs and they were notched and laid down just like Lincoln Logs. The cracks were caulked with plain old mud and a preservative added to the logs creosote. They cut out the holes for the windows. We had real windows. Not like some folks. The back door was nailed together with 2 by 4' s, with a leather strap for a handle.

Our home was long, really three cabins strung together with a woodshed attached to the kitchen. The kitchen was the room you lived in because it was so large and the only room that was warm in winter. We nailed apple boxes up on the log walls for cabinets, with a curtain fringe made from flour sack.

We had a nice big store-bought maple table with six matching chairs. In one corner, was a butter churn the size of a small child. We always had plenty of fresh butter. We all took our turns churning the butter but during thunderstorms the butter wouldn't set and even Bessie wouldn't give us much milk.

The wood burning stove had a hot water reservoir built right on the side of it. The stove had a firebox on one side and an oven with a warming closet above it. It was brand new, the latest invention. We always had the nicest fresh bread and butter, it made a lovely sandwich with fresh butter and raw onions.

We also kept a copper boiler on top of the stove for washing, a coffee pot-the old granite kind- and cast iron pots and skillets. And several irons on the backside of the stove were always at the ready. They had a special handle that clamped on. Tuesday was ironing day. Monday was washday and Wednesday was baking day. Saturday was for mending and cleaning house and on Sundays we went to church. Well, whatever day the preacher came to visit us was "Sunday." He'd come on horseback on his route through Fielding and he'd stop at each and every homestead and minister to his flock.

We saved all our flour sacks. We’d wash them in Fels Naptha soap on the stove and the sacks would come out all clean and white, and we’d use them for curtains and clothing. Braided rugs on the floor. Gunny sacks at the stoop and at the door to wipe your feet.

For a sink, we had a basin on a bench to wash our hands and a pail filled with fresh water with a communal cup for drinking. No indoor plumbing. A small round mirror hung over the kitchen bench. You stood in line to part your hair.

The view from the kitchen window was of the fields that Dad had cleared. The log fences, the trees, wildflowers and cleared fields, mountains, the stream and the bridge. I remember the trees turning different colors with the seasons. I'd watch squirrels scamper up the trees and the birds flying. Big clouds in the distance. The animals in the yard. The chickens, Porky, Bessie and Big Fred in the pasture. I stood by that stove looking out, Tinkerbell in her gunnysack-lined apple box was nearly always asleep. The little lamb couldn't have a nice soft flour sack because we were all wearing them.

The outhouse was way out back near the barn. To make an outhouse, first you dug a deep hole, and hoped you didn't fall in after it was lined with quicklime. Then you built the outhouse around the hole. Once I spilled lime on my dress and it ate it all up. I was so sorry as dresses were hard to come by. In the house, if you had to go, there was always a slop jar.

So many details and I haven't even gotten to the rest of the house yet.

The bedroom had two big double beds. It was divided with a door in the middle. We had kerosene lamps on stands to light the room. Dad and Mother each had a trunk with all their treasures inside. We loved to go through those trunks so much, we memorized the memorabilia. In my mother's trunk was a crazy quilt made of all colors and embroidered all around-it was my great-great-great Grandmother Backhaus's quilt. I still have it.

In my father's trunk was a picture album of family ancestors. His was a rounded wooden trunk My mother's had leather straps and was made of slatted wood and fancy metal strips. It was painted dark blue with gold trim. The trunks doubled as seats with a throw on top.

Don't know why we even had a living room. Things were a little nicer there. It was always kept clean for folks to visit. It had the prettiest rugs, the most colorful curtains. There were straight-backed chairs. The lynx pelt was hung on the wall. It was more like a trophy room than a living room with all the stuffed animals and furs mounted on the walls and on the floors. We had a big grizzly bear rug on the floor; we used to lie on it with our head resting on its head. Mother kept her Singer treadle sewing machine in the living room. She did all her sewing there but it was cold. No potbelly stove. The kitchen was the warmest room, we all lived there. It was the heart of the house.


JACK’S BIRTH

Now I guess it's time to tell you about my family. I was the second child. My brother Fred was two years older, born on the eve of Christmas Eve. We always celebrated his birthday on Christmas Eve. My birthday was May 14, we didn't have parties because there was no one my age on the homestead~ to invite. My only brother born on the homestead was Jack, he was two years younger than me and we moved to Whitefish soon after. I remember it well when he was born.

My mother wasn't feeling well, Dad had gone off to work and to get my Aunt Gertie. So Mother sent us outside to the barn to keep out of mischief. She told us not to come into the house, to stay outside until she called for us. Well, lunch time came and went and it got later and later. We were so hungry my brother Fred snuck into the kitchen but he couldn't find anything to eat. All he could find was salt, pepper and sugar. He milked Bessie and mixed the salt, pepper and sugar with a half a cup of milk. I was so hungry. I was waiting for something good to eat. I tasted it and I didn't like his cooking at all.

Aunt Gertie still hadn't come, we waited outside for her so we could go into the house and eat. We'd almost made ourselves sick on Fred's cooking. Here my brother was being born and we were kept out of the house. No food. It was cold.

Bored, Fred climbed up the barn and jumped off the top of the hay mow. He came out all right. Then it was my turn. I couldn't see myself jumping a good story to the ground so I climbed back down the way I'd come up. By the time my aunt called us into the house, it was getting dark. That night while we were jumping off the barn, my brother was born. We came into the house and just sniffed our noses and walked right by the crib. We didn't even look at Jack. She gave us a good meal and put us to bed.

When we later moved to Whitefish in 1923, my sister Maxine and my youngest brother "Prince Albert" were born. "Prince Albert" wasn't his real name but I will tell you that story later.


WHAT IS LOVE?

What is love? It could be many things.

What comes to mind is the dear old lady we called Grandma

Armstrong. She wasn't my grandmother by relation, but she was the only grandma I really loved. She was always there for us.

I was born in 1914. My youngest years, before I went to school in town, were spent on our homestead in Fielding, Montana, just below Glacier Park, in the Rockies. During the early 1900s, there were only about five homes within miles and miles of wilderness. So we made do with what we had. And we all relied on each other.

Grandma Armstrong was the station master, she lived in the railroad depot, and she was also the postmistress. Every job that was around, that had to be done, that was her job. Anything of importance she would deliver to us on foot, any time, anywhere, throughout the valley. If there was anyone ill, she was the one who took care of them. If there were any deliveries to be made, she made them on foot-it was 5 to 10 miles between homesteads.

She always had time to stop and have a conversation with you, or if there was a message or a return post, she'd deliver it personally.

If you stopped by die depot, there was always a pot of coffee or tea on the potbelly stove in the center of the room. I remember the blue and white plates with flowers on them and the snow-white ruffled white curtains framing the windows, and the table laden with crumpets ready for you.

What I remember most was when she delivered our Christmas gifts in the snow. We always knew when she was coming. Grandma Armstrong was like Santa Claus. She brought cookies and candy. She came cross-country in snowshoes with a pack on her back.

This is what I call love.

She lived alone in the depot. I don't know how many years she did this community service, but she was so faithful and devoted, our lives were so much more beautiful because of her continuance. Her smile and being was angelic.

She was both the doctor and the nurse of the Valley, she was the one who was called up when babies were born, when people were sick or injured.

There was a flag train that came through the Fielding depot but didn't stop but it would blow its horn and it would echo all through the valley, a long, lonesome sound.

One time when the train horn blew, it spooked the horses my brother was driving and he fell off the buckboard and split his head open on the tracks. My father just let the horses go loose, and they ran crazily off until the buckboard overturned. He picked my brother up and carried him to the depot. Grandma Armstrong administered to him, flagged down the train and took my brother to the nearest town that had a doctor, which was in Whitefish.

Years later, in 1923, when we all moved to the newly built town of Whitefish, Grandma Armstrong moved with us, and retired from the life of selfless love. But she continued, even in town, to care for others-just the same as she did for us on the homestead.


THE OLD 27

One morning we all got in the buckboard and went up to visit my

Aunt Gertie, who lived about 5 miles from us. We passed the MacIntyre Ranch. They were well off, they had the nicest place for miles around. They used to have a lot of family come up for barbecues or sit on the front porch and visit.

I t was a long way to my Aunt Gertie's. There were lots of ruts and rocks in the dirt road. The road needed a lot of attention. We climbed up the mountain with its big switchbacks, and through the forest until you came to the clearing. They had two cabins at Aunt Gertie's a one-room cabin for guests-that was us-and a cabin for their home. Their cabin was huge, it had two whole rooms, a kitchen/dining/living room, and a separate bedroom.

My Uncle Fred and my father and my brother, Fred were going to take a little trip to the railroad station which was about three-­quarters of a mile away to get some feed for the animals and some garden tools and seed for my mother. It was spring. We were out of feed. It was time to plant the garden.

There was so little train traffic in those days, everyone would drive right down the tracks to get to the depot. It was a very bumpy ride going over the railroad ties. The depot was also the post office and general store. There was a big platform, well built with milled lumber. not hand hewn logs like our houses. All our homes were made of logs. It even had real windows, pretty windows.

Grandma Armstrong, who ran the depot, had her dainty little touches: white starched ruffled curtains, a little table with a white cloth embroidered real fancy. A place that said welcome in the middle of the wilderness and everybody from miles around went there. It was the center of all things. And we'd always stop in for coffee or tea.

My mother and I went to stay with Aunt Gertie while the men took the team to the station. Old Chief and Buck were hitched to the buckboard. My brother Fred wanted to ride on the seat, he was six, he was finally old enough for it to be safe.

We heard the toot of the Old 27 coming down the tracks, coming around the last bend before the station. Where were they? Just crossing the railroad tracks but Old Chief and Buck, when they heard the train, they raised up and bolted and there was a real runaway buckboard for sure. They were on the tracks and the train whistle startled them.

Fred was thrown from the seat onto the tracks and he hit his head, it was split from his temple to his crown and back down the other side.

Now the Old 27 mail train to Whitefish didn't stop in Fielding for mail, it barreled right onto the next stop. There was a bag hanging over the tracks that the Old 27 engineer leaned out and grabbed as he went by.

Dad jumped off the buckboard and scooped Fred up in his arms and took him to the railroad depot/station where Grandma Armstrong was waiting at the ready. She gathered up some towels and bandaged Fred's head as best as she could and made him ready for the trip into town.

Uncle Fred ran down the tracks to flag down the train. (It didn't normally stop there.) The horses took off and ran away. The buckboard eventually flipped over, forcing them to stop.

The train slowed down and they put my brother Fred in the car. They got him comfortable while Grandma Armstrong telegraphed

ahead to the nearest town for a doctor. They rode to the next town, to Whitefish, where the doctor was waiting with his black bag and all his tools ready to take care of the wounded.

They moved Fred onto a baggage card for an operating table­ right there at the station. The doctor stitched Fred up from his temple to his crown. And then they waited to see if Fred was all right.

After Fred recovered from the surgery, he was given a handful of candy canes. Dad and Fred returned to Fielding on the next train going their way. .

Mother and Aunt Gertie were waiting with Grandma Armstrong to see how Fred fared from his experience. We were so happy to see him, he looked so funny with his bandaged head like a turban. Of course, I was delighted to be able to share the candy too.

By the time Uncle Fred corralled the horses and they had calmed down enough to drive, it was nearly dark, we were ready to be on our way home where the farm anin1a1s were anxiously waiting for their oats and feed as their breakfast had been quite delayed that day.

OLD CHIEF, INDIAN PONY

I t was one morning in the fall of the year. My father saddled up the horses to get our provisions at the railroad station way up the mountain. We had two horses, Old Chief, the Indian horse my father bought from the Blackfoot Indians, in Browning, Montana. And the pinto that was my brother Fred's horse.

There were only two horses and four people to ride them. I was told to ride behind my mother on Old Chief. I held tightly onto the back of the saddle. My mother was in front, with my younger brother Jack, in her arms. We had to ride to the railroad station.

We got to the depot just fine. My uncle loaded the supplies onto my brother's pinto. My brother was laden with all the supplies, and the rest of us were all on the safe, broad back of Old Chief.

The railroad station was half-way up the mountainside and there were so many switchbacks you'd go sideways just to go forward. We were about half-way down the mountain when Old Chief's saddle began to slip and slide. My uncle hadn't tightened up the cinch enough at the station.

Old Chief knew when things were wrong. He was careful. But we were half-way down the mountain side when the saddle began to pitch. I'd slide from side to side on each turn.

Soon the saddle slid clear under his belly and my mother landed on the ground sitting upright miraculously holding the baby in her arms. Old Chief, he just stood there, stock still. But me, all fat and roly poly, I tumbled and tumbled down the steep mountainside.

Everything whirring by me and the gorge looming below. Somehow I found a bush and managed to grab it. I held on for dear life and there I was, dangling on the edge of a precipice. Otherwise I would've landed in the river below.

A fisherman below me heard the ruckus. He looked up and when he saw me dangling from that bush, he dropped everything, his fishing pole, his creel, and he climbed up the cliff and pulled me to safety.

He carried me the rest of the way back up the mountain too. He resaddled the horse, cinched it up tight. I climbed back on again. I wasn't afraid. We started down the trail toward home, in time for supper, in time to meet my father who was on his way home too. I was only four.


OLD CHIEF AND THE LYNX

It was the fall of the year, around 1918 or 1919, we were on our return trip home from picking up our monthly supplies at the railroad station, and the horses were going at a very easy gait, going homeward. We were all relieved that everything was taken care of for the month and we were on our way home.

We came to the beginning of the forest and Old Chief: the lead horse, stopped abruptly and he would not move a muscle any farther. Mother patted his head, coaxed him on, but he still wouldn't move. Mother never had to use a whip on our horses, they always went without too much urging. They were good horses, they always did what the were supposed to do.

But Old Chief wouldn't budge. So as Mother raised the whip, about to hit Old Chief, she happened to look up, and there on a branch above the trail, was a lynx ready to pounce upon his prey. Horses have an extra sense about them, they sense danger before it happens. And once again, Old Chief had saved our lives.

Mother threw down her whip and gave Old Chief his head. We returned safely back to my uncle's place. We retraced our steps back to safety, back to our Uncle Fred's cabin back up the mountain, in Fielding, Montana, where you'd think it was heaven way up in the Rockies. She threw down her whip and gave Old Chief an apple.

When we didn't return home, my father came looking for us first at his brother's place. Uncle Fred kept his rifle on a rack high up, near the ceiling. He filled his coat pockets with ammunition and my father and Uncle Fred took us safely back home. It was about an hour's journey. We returned safely home.

I was about four or five years old, I remember that, because my aunt lived there too on the homestead. My aunt was left alone all day with little or no conversation. She was so lonely, she'd talk and talk and talk, that's why I remember the stories so well. She'd come to town, we'd sit at her knee, and she'd tell us the stories again and again and again until the were committed to memory.

(That's why I'm telling these stores now for my little brother, Albert, who didn't grow up on the homestead. That's not his real name which is William Henry Stannard but we didn't like it. We thought he was too grand for that. "Prince Albert" we all called him after Queen Victoria's husband. And it stuck to this very day.) But the story doesn't end there.

F or the next six months, my father began to carry his rifle with him daily as he walked back and forth to where he worked at the railroad depot in Fielding. It was about an hour's journey each way on foot. He saw signs of the lynx following him. If my father happened to stumble and fall when he was walking, then the lynx, thinking he was injured, would attack. That lynx followed my father for six whole months. My father laid traps with meat to catch that big cat but a lynx won't attack unless its prey is alive and wounded.

One morning, shortly after my father left for work, he returned home to get more ammunition. We went through the fields to where the forest began, a clump of trees, bare-branched poplar. And there was the lynx in his trap, caught by one of his back legs.

We could hear him crying, screaming in pain. When the big cat saw us, he reared up on his hind legs, hissed and clawed at the air. We backed off to a safe distance. My father loaded his rifle and got close as he could and waited patiently for the lynx to calm down. He aimed carefully, and with one shot, he shot him between the eyes.

We had the lynx mounted on the living room wall of our cabin where it hung for years above the couch. I used to love to pet it. The fur was so soft. Who knows, it still might be mounted on someone's wall to this very day.



New Fallen Snow

Early in the morning Dad had just come back from the barn milking the cows. He called out to Fred and I, “Come quickly and see the new fallen snow.” Fred and I jumped out of bed, ran to the windows and then to the door opened wide. We drew back our arms and took several deep breaths of fresh air. The snow was softly coming down, 1 flake, 2 flakes and at times quite heavily. It was just what we had ordered and been watching for each day as fall drifted into winter and the nights were getting colder. With one jump and a bounce we grabbed our clothes and pants, which had been laid out the night before. Making sure we got the heavier, warmer clothes for the snowfall.

Mother inspected us to make sure we had our mittens, scarves, and snow boots. After we passed inspection we ran out into the beautiful snow which would soon be packed and ready for sledding. We ran outside to Daddy with our sleds.

During the night the snow had fallen and packed down making a good foundation for our sleds to whisk down the hill.

Fred would run like the wind and go belly buster on his sled, grab the handles and coast his way down the hill. I tried my best to follow but somehow I always got tripped up on the rope and the slippery handles, which I didn’t know what they were for. But I sure learned fast. Dad had brought up from the barn, Old Chief, our horse, to tie him to the big sleigh. He was standing just beside the hill and off the tracks of where we were sledding. I grabbed my sled, ran like 60, plopped down on my tummy and left the rest to the sled. I thought surely I would go right down the hill, but no such luck, I forgot to grab the handles to steer the sleigh. Now I knew what the handles are for- I ran right into Old Chiefs back hoofs and he lifted his foot and planted it right in the middle of my back. I thought I was squashed to death. I screamed and yelled at the top of my lungs. But kind Old Chief had just barely touched me and I was not hurt at all.

After it was all over, I was bound to conquer the hill. Up the hill I went pulling my sled, starting all over again. This time I grabbed the handles and with my brother’s instructions I made it down the hill. From then on we had a pleasant day in the snow.

Soon Mother called it was lunchtime. We had vegetable soup, our favorite. We ran to the house and threw off all the snow clothing and enjoyed hot vegetable soup in our warm cozy kitchen.



HUNTING LODGE

When we lived on the homestead in Fielding, Montana, my father would take people from back east on hunting trips in the wintertime. In a photo, I remember visitors from New York­, they were all lawyers and doctors­. I remember they had pictures taken of their hunting trip. I got to observe them setting it all up.

The animals they shot were hung on the fence. He'd gather them all up together for a group photo. We had a log fence, we'd throw saddles on it and sit on them. He took the animal rugs from the living room and the hides, hung them over a stump and some bushes to make them look real, like live animals.

They all got their guns out-you had to have a gun in those days­-and dressed themselves up in their hunting outfits and boots and they were all draped with our living room rugs...it made for an authentic looking background of their hunting trip.

They used a big old-fashioned black box on stilts. The photographer covered up his head with a cloth and he'd look out these two holes... In one hand he held a tray trough filled with white powder which made a flash of light when it was lit.

It was all such a mystery to me. .They took the camera with them back to New York and used to photographs for advertisements for future trips. Those pictures were in our album for years but my brother was leaving home, so they went with him... I would love to have some of those photos now.


A KNOCK AT THE DOOR

It was the fall of the year and everyone was getting ready, thinking of Christmas. My mother was sewing away on the Singer making  Raggedy Anns for gifts. We were sitting on the bed looking at a
catalogue for what we wanted. It was so quiet. My father had gone into town getting supplies. He was getting my gift that night.

All of a sudden there was a knock at the door. Mother asked, "Who's there?" No answer. Another knock. Three times. Mother got her gun down from the mantle, loaded it, ready and prepared. When the knock came to the door again, she said, “If you don't answer when I count three, I'll shoot. I have a gun aimed at the door, aimed at your head."

We lived out in the wilds and thieves would come to steal your horses, steal your chickens, or eggs, they'd steal you clean. When no answer came, she opened fire and shot straight through the door.

We heard steps leaving the porch and the crunch of footsteps in the icy snow as he disappeared down the road. We stayed clear of the windows and doors for quite some time. She made a hole right through the door.

We were hidden under the table and we came out slowly and ran to our mother's skirts. We held on for dear life. We felt so protected under our mother's care.


UNREST IN THE HENHOUSE

There was a great unrest in the henhouse. We couldn't figure out what was wrong with our chickens. They weren't laying. They were nervous, walking back and forth, flapping their wings, making unusual noises for chickens. Even the rooster was walking cocky and making strange noises. The hens weren't making their quota with eggs.

We thought what to do...lt didn't seem to be animals bothering them. No sign of wolves or weasels or foxes. We kept on observing the henhouse. Mother was out looking for eggs and high up in the sky there was a speck spiraling around and around in a black circle. It was a hawk.

She goes in, gets her rifle, cocks it, loads it, and went out to the henhouse to get the hawk. We'd already lost six of our best laying hens and that made a huge hole in our breakfast routine.

The old hawk came down and swooped taking a hen. It was gone so quick, my mother's heart almost fell. To get that hawk was impossible. "He was back before, he'll be back again." There was snow on the ground. My brother and I stayed close to Mother, to be safe.

Mother was out, ready for him to circle. She waited her turn, and she shot, getting her hawk, but the gun backfired. She fell to the ground bleeding, It cut, her, making a “J” shape above her lip. My brother reached into his pocket and gave her a nice white handkerchief and pressed it on her lip. When she came to, we helped her to the house.

When you're living in the wilds with animals, there's always something going on. Your gun is your friend. It meets every stranger who comes to your home. And every animal. As a rule, they don't get past the gate. They meet the gun first. She got her hawk that day.


HUCKLEBERRY PIE

It was a great day, one of those clear, crisp days when you want to get out and get going to where you want to go, and to do everything all at once. You have so much energy you just wanna go, go, go everywhere. Anywhere. Everything just seems to be right.

We were young, around four or five, and we were so excited because we were going huckleberrying. We were up and ready at dawn. We got up early and got large lard cans ready to fill up with huckleberries. We were out picking early in the morning, at the break of day.

At first, we ate our fill of huckleberries. There weren't many berries going into the lard cans. The huckleberries were plentiful, juicy and delicious. We picked and picked and picked until our lard pails were overflowing. All morning long, and all through the day we picked and picked. At lunch time we ate sandwiches and apples under the shade of a tree. After lunch, we started for home, much earlier than expected, with all our berries. More than we needed.

When we got home, Mother went into the kitchen and started making huckleberry pies while we rested on the grass. My brother was whittling whistles from the willow tree. He'd cut the bark loose from the stick and hollow out the center and slide the bark back on again. I was looking for four-leaf clovers. I was always looking for good luck.

When the pies were done, the whistles completed, I found a four­-leaf clover. We looked up and Dad was coming across the fields. We all ran out to meet him. We went into the cabin and ate a meal with delicious pie made with huckleberries we'd picked all by ourselves early that morning.



DARLENE


It was early springtime
It was early in the morning
The sun was shining
Trees were blowing in the breeze
It was a lovely day
When my father came in from the barn,
he announced that Bessie was ready.
We didn't have any shoes or stockings on.
We ran to the barn to see what was going on.

Besse had a twinkle in her eye.
Quite nervous she was, pacing back and forth.
She was usually so calm and contented.
We all gathered round her.
Mother went to Bessie's head
and told her to be quiet.
Everything would be all right.
Bessie said Moo!

And there was Darlene
in my father's arms.


He tried to stand Darlene on her feet. She'd kneel and fall many times before she was strong enough to stand. Mother kept petting Bessie trying to calm her. Bessie was really contented and delighted with her newborn child.

It was time for Darlene's first meal. My father guided her to her mother's udder and tried to get her to drink. But Darlene wasn't about to nurse. A bucket of milk was filled. It was quite a chore to get her to eat. My father dipped his hand into the milk and into Darlene's mouth. She took to his finger, he replaced it with her mother's teat. Darlene had her first meal. I was five.


PORKY

Our pigs always ran loose, they were like dogs, they were our pets. Wherever we went, our pet Porky had to come too. As usual, my brother Fred was way out ahead. Porky was spoiled rotten, he was always the center of the stage. Whenever he saw my father he had to get to Dad first, not to eat but to greet him. He loved to be patted and scratched more than he loved food.

Porky chose to travel along with me, trotting at a slower pace. No longer a little piglet, he had grown a lot but he didn't know it. We had to cross the creek at the log bridge. It was built like a raft, it didn't have any sides. But he kept nudging me closer to the edge of the bridge. Hogging the bridge. The water below was gurgling over big rocks and soon there was no bridge left for me and I went down, down, down into the swirling water.

Next thing I knew, I was blowing bubbles and splashing water every which way, dog paddling, trying to scream, but I couldn't make any noise. My father came once again to the rescue. With his big strong arms, he pulled me out just in time for huckleberry pie.

Mother was at the door, come running to the door, arms open wide



GOIN FISHIN

My brother, who was older than I,
got to go fishing with our uncle.
I wanted to go fishing too.
But I always had to stay at home.
One specia1 morning it was my turn
to go fishing with my brother.
I'd been waiting a long time. I was so excited.
Off we took early one morning
to Stannard Creek
-it was named after my father. 
There was a bend in the stream
 with a log over it. 
My brother took a willow branch,
tied strong packing string on it,
he took a straight pin, bent it almost double
and put a worm on the end of it.
I sat on a log, quiet and peaceful,
my line, with my worm wiggling in the water...
All of a sudden there was a yank,
I screamed, "I caught a fish!"
And I fell into the water.

My brother came running,
he pulled on the pole
and on the other end was a frog
And that was the end of my fishing days.



SWIM LITTLE FISHIES!

When my grandfather went fishing,
he never killed the fish.
He'd bring them home alive
and give them to my sisters.
They'd put them in the bathtub,
fill it with water.
They'd pat them as if they were pets 
and say, "Swim little fishies, swim!"




DANCING WITH BEARS

It was in the fall of 1919-1920. I was about 5 years old, my brotherFred was 7, there were no more huckleberries left in the mountains. My father and mother had some very important business to take care of in town and Fred and I went to stay with Aunt Gertie and Uncle Fred.

We had just gotten up in the morning quite early and finished a  great breakfast of pancakes and lovely maple syrup, bacon and eggs-our favorite breakfast. Aunt Gertie always did special things when we came over to see her.

We'd just finished eating, and we were sitting around the table  making plans for the day, when some strange noises came from the back of the cabin. Tubs banging. It didn't make an impression on my brother or me but a worried look came over Aunt Gertie's face. We'd begged her to play the gramophone many times. This time  she let us play with it.

She showed my brother how to crank the gramophone and she soon had us settled. I was dancing with delight. We were having a great time, it was so splendid that we could do it ourselves-we had begged her for so long. Fred was delighted to crank and crank and crank. Aunt Gertie took advantage of the time while we were preoccupied with the gramophone to slip away.

Unbeknownst to us, she went into the other room, took down the shotgun from the rack above the bed, loaded it with shells from the dresser and slipped out the door behind the cabin to confront a grizzly. She waited for her chance, aiming very carefully, she took one shot and got him right between the eyes.

We were still dancing to the funny music. We didn't hear anything. My aunt came in with the gun, she was white-faced and shaking all over. She didn't tell us what had happened, or how dangerous it was. She just sat at the table a long time composing herself. When she got over the shock of it, she knew she had a real bear story to tell.

And all the while, we just kept on dancing and cranking the gramophone. Little did we know that if she hadn't shot the bear, it would've torn the whole cabin down looking for food: the bacon, pancakes, the eggs and the syrup.

She didn't know that I would also have a bear story to tell to you like the one I'm telling you right now.



BIG FRED: BULL STORY

It was early in the morning, my brother Fred and I went across the pasture with Dad to milk the cows. As we passed the corral, Big Fred, our steer (destined for future dinners), was wanting to get out. It was such a lovely day and he was quite frisky.

We went on our way and went to milk the cows. When we were finished we headed back to our log cabin home.

But this morning the corral just wasn't big enough for Big Fred. He wanted out, so he pushed and leaned on the log fence until it broke under his weight and then he started out after us in a fury. We were between him and his grass. We were in the way of his field.

It's a bull's nature to charge, to want to pierce you with his horns. They seem to go mad. That's why they're dehorned. Big Fred still had his horns and he knew how to use them.

I stumbled on a rock as Big Fred charged me. He was after us already and we were running for dear life. My brother was faster than me and he was running as fast as he could. I couldn't keep up with him. I had to go and stumble on a stupid rock.

Just as I was getting up Big Fred was charging at me with his hot breath, hot eyes and sharp horns. I felt myself surrounded by Big Fred in all directions. I was trying to get up to get away from Big Fred. I turned, only to look into his fierce eyes. I was so scared, I thought I was about to pass out. I thought I was really done for.

But just then, my father was at the ready with a pitchfork in his hand and he came right after Big Fred. With his pitchfork, he steered Big Fred in the other direction.

I was never so thankful in all my life. I gulped a big breath of fresh air and ran to my mother's arms. She hugged me closely I was so glad that my father finally got Big Fred into the barn. He tried to bash it down while my dad fixed the corral.

Later, Big Fred was put back in his newly mended corral, day­dreaming of a time when he was going to get out into all those fields of luscious green grass, just there for the eating. Little did he know he was going to be on the dinner table a little sooner than expected.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Letter from Montana Historical Society


Subject: Madeline Stannard Bedal

Hi

For over a year, I've been collecting the folk stories of Madeline Stannard Bedal (of Fielding, (Stannard Creek is named after her family), and, later, Whitefish. She would like to send her stories to interested folks. 

She is at the Westlake retirement center in Fremont, CA and was born in 1914. Her family homesteaded in Fielding. She's an excellent storyteller. I take down her stories verbatim (she's legally blind) and type them up, read them back, and she makes small corrections.

I have been trained in folklore collection at UC Berkeley with Professor Dundes. I have not applied analysis to the stories as they're folk narrative. We've a class called Memoirs with Maureen. 

I am a Montana Arts Council artist in residence and was listed with MAC during the 1980s and 1990s. I taught poetry in Laurel, MO.

Maureen Hurley
295 A MacArthur Blvd 
Oakland Ca 94610



Hello Maureen Hurley,

Your message, below, was forwarded to me and I find it interesting not the least because my father was born in Kalispell in 1896 and he knew a George Stannard. I also had a Mr. Stannard as a geometry teacher in 1961 at Helena High.

Other than informing us of your research, I wasn't able to understand exactly why you contacted us. Perhaps a part of the message was cut off. See below. It seems to me that copies of her narrative/ your work should certainly be interesting to the Montana State Historical Society, and also to me, because of my family's history in the Flathead.

My grandfather, Andrew Swaney established a trading post on Ashley Creek in what is now Kalispell. My great grandfather Foy built two saw mills on what is now Foy's Lake near Kailspell. Perhaps Mrs. Bedal knew some of my family, though there are now no Swaneys in the town, the Swaneys in the Flathead are now all members of the tribe, and we presume we're related through the Irish side.

I am the director of folklife programs and hence I receive most of the historically interesting email. Please tell me more.

Best regards,
Alexandra Swaney
aswaney@mt.gov





Hi Alexandra,

Madeline was quite excited to know that someone in Montana might be interested in her homestead stories. I will see if I can take a letter from her tomorrow (Friday) to forward to you. She did mention that she'd heard of a George Stannard, but she wasn't sure if they were related. At least not to her immediate family.

It sounds like you have some shared heritage. I especially like her stories of Grandma Armstrong who ran the Fielding station/depot.

Are you associated with the Montana Historical Society as well? You mentioned that you were the director of the folklife programs, I'm not sure exactly what that entails. Is there a web site I can browse?

My interest (and letter) was solely to complete a wish of Madeline's that the stories don't get lost, as she is 94. But that they be shared.

Someone in Reno (Univ of Nevada) collected stories of our ranch, Home Ranch in the Reese River Valley in Austin Nevada, but they neglected to even contact our family, who founded the ranch in the 1860s, and hence missed some of the better stories which are still very much alive in our family. 

I found the chapbook in a bookstore and it was very disappointing in that my family were the first to settle the valley and grow grain to feed the Comstock miners who found that man cannot live by meat alone. It was said the grain was more valuable than the gold. 

And there's the story of my 2nd cousin Julia Walsh, whose ghost is said to still inhabit the International Hotel in Austin. Her presence is noted by the odor of fresh-brewed coffee... Julia, who was "special," sat at the fire sewing imaginary clothing with imaginary thread while her sister, Mary Walsh, a math wizard, computed numbers in Los Alamos. 

We later found out it was the Manhattan Project... Alas, the writer didn't look very hard as she collected the stories, as Walshes are very much in the Austin graveyard, and a descendent still lived in Austin. Not to mention Jim Champie, the current owner of Home Ranch, has regular visits from our family (Walsh), and so he knows our stories too. 

Of Wild Bill wo drove to Ione and sold his wagon for a bottle of whisky and a good game of cards. Jim has photos of my family and he even knows the names of our horses, now long since dead. So maybe it's a need to add to our own stories that motivates me.

What particular format would you like Madeline's stories in, what all would you like me to do in order to make them available to people?

Maureen Hurley


Dear Alexandra,
Madeline Stannard Bedal writes:

I think George Stannard was teaching in Helena. He has a doctorate of math and lives in Billings, he’s retired. His real name is William Henry Stannard (we called him Prince Albert, or PA for short). He was living in Kalispell, which is next door to Whitefish.

It seems to me that I’ve heard of the Swaneys before. I’d like to know more about them, the connection. We moved to town from Fielding, where my stories are written, to go to school in Whitefish. It seems strange that our paths haven’t crossed before. If you could send me some stories about the Swayneys or of George Stannard. It might prompt me to tell more stories.

Madeline Stannard Bedal



Dear Madeline,

It could be that my teacher's first name was William. We always called him Mr. Stannard. He was brilliant and he had blue eyes and I have to transfer out of the class because it was advanced geometry, too advanced for me! But I liked him anyway!

My father used to mention someone he knew in Kalispell named george Stannard, so maybe that's where I got the name.

Andrew Swaney established a trading post on Ashley Creek in what is now Kalispell in the 1870's. He married Mary Ann Foy, whose father built a sawmill on Foy's Lake about that time. Andrew was in the Spanish American War and later was a deputy sheriff and county commissioner in Kalispell and adjutant of the old soldier's home in Columbia Falls. His brother James worked in a bank, another brother, Grant, was a lawyer. One of his sisters married Alexander MacDonald. Another sister married George Fisher, who founded the Presbyterian church in Kalispell. My father wrote an autobiography in which he mentions all this, and I hope to have it transcribed one of these days.

It is nice to hear from you. Let's keep in touch!

Alexandra Swaney



Dear Alexandra, 11/2/05

(Madeline writes) It was my brother who was the math teacher you mentioned in Helena.  We would like very much to know about this George, the ancestry. Who was who?

I have so little information about my father Delbert--there were two brothers, Delbert & Fred. My grandfather was Edward, his father came form Ireland with his brother to settle in Montana and that's where we don't have the information.

When my father and Fred were small children, ther mother (Della?) died after being thrown by a horse and the ir father left them to be raised by cowboys in Colorado and later, in Sheridan, Wyoming. The family history was lost in that era.

My father and his brother Fred came to Fielding from Sheridan. Fred was born there in 1912. We know there were some relations, Stannards who moved to Michigan, but we don't know what happened to them.

Madeline Bedal

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